So many times I have needed a friend (not my mom) to be there for me, talk to
me, understand and listen to me. This friend treated me like I treat him, like an amazing
friend. You were always that someone. Since sophomore year in driver’s education, we
have been friends, we just clicked. I don’t know if it was your funny sense of humor, or
the fact that we could talk about basically anything, but we became best friends.
Many nights, you would come pick me up at my house, and we would drive
around forever, just talking about anything and everything. Our problems seemed so far
away because we were right there, not boyfriend/girlfriend, there was no pressure, just
two best friends, being ourselves. Eventually, we would park, and continue talking till
curfew. Sometimes we would even go get you food, you’re a growing boy. Those are the
nights I miss so much. Just sitting there, knowing that I had someone that would always
be there for me no matter what.
You were there when no one else was. You would listen to me whine about life,
about the other friends that WEREN’T there. But I never told you about how amazing the
one friend that WAS there was. Maybe that’s what happened. Maybe that’s why you
pushed me away, stopped calling, stopped being there. Things happened that we couldn’t
control. We both handled it wrongly, but you don’t seem to want to share the blame.
You would sit there and hug me; we had days where we just didn’t go to class
when you needed me, when I needed you, when we needed each other. When we both
just needed to cry, or someone to hold on to. I remember telling you that you were worth
more than any girl I know, and its true, but for some reason I feel like I didn’t make it
known to you. You are more than “just a farmer” you are a funny, lovable,
understanding, patient, protective, I could go on.
You are one of those guys that makes anyone feel safe, secure, and
amazing. I remember one time when a guy hurt me, I had to try to hold you back from
hurting him. You care so much, you will protect any of your friends.
You always told me that you would stay my friend no matter what, if someone
made you try to choose, you wouldn’t, because we were best friends. I thought you were
being honest. Now I see that maybe it was just something temporary.
In any case, I am glad that I had the time, the friendship, the opportunity to have you
there for me and I for you. You were my best friend, and if you wanted that again, you
know that you could always come back. I miss you, and you are the perfect example of
what every teenager needs. This, is for you.
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