Cuts, scars, bruises, lies and fake smile. Constant cries and a horrifying past. Promises broken, lovers lost, and the “trust me” that didn't last.

when most people get "burned" by the people around them, they stop trusting people all together. that makes sense! you trust someone, and they ruin it, so you don't trust them anymore, right? well, as that may be the case for some of you, it's very different for me. i have been burned so many times that i almost can't even count, like a lot of us. so why is it that all this makes me more open with people? when i think about this sometimes i feel confused, but then it makes just as much sense as not trusting people. think about it. i have had so much pain caused from people who hurt me, but in a way, all this makes me want to find my REAL friends, find the people that i can REALLY trust. i make a new friend, and i have no problem telling them most things about my life. all the mistrust has thrown me into trusting even more. the feeling of being able to trust others is like a lifelong journey for me, sometimes i find it, and a lot of times i don't. in a way, this characteristic, this personality trait, has brought me even more pain. eager to share my life and my secrets with people, i have put a lot on the line, for someone who, the next day, throws it in my face. and yet i continue trusting, i go on sharing, hoping that one day i wont have to worry about who i tell what, because the people that surround me will genuinely care enough to not hurt me. i have a few of them :] and i hope never to lose them.