I have to write right now, even though I really dont want to. I need to. I always talk about how I have overcome my depression, and how it is possible. Its a great thing, but I just want you to remember that just because the illness, the disease is gone, doesn't mean you never feel pain again. Right now, I feel very down, there is a lot going on in my mind that I feel that I dont know how to handle. And maybe I don't. But there is one thing I do know. I can feel the difference between this pain that is penetrating me at the moment, and the almost permanant pain that I have struggled with in the past. I don't quite know how to describe the difference, but I think we all just know for ourselves. Although the waves crash, we know that the tide will go down, and we will be able to breathe again. I could let this pain scar me, I could embrace it, and not let go, but that would be inviting my depression back in. And although sometimes it is hard to not open that door again, I realize that It will just make things worse then they already are.
If anyone can help it will be you :] and my savior. He will help me out, and help me feel that I can change, and stay that way. I know that I am loved.