"you make breaking hearts so easy, seems like you have done this before."

It's always hard when you go through a break up. How could it ever be easy? Well maybe when you are the one doing the breaking it can be. I am having a particularly having a hard time letting go of this last guy. Not going to lie, he had me convinced he loved me. And for the first time in a long time I began to trust again, began to feed into that same lie that maybe this one won't hurt me. As much as I want to say I have no regrets from this relationship, I do. I guess you should never let yourself care more about your companion more than they love you. That's the only way I figure that you can avoid heartbreak the way I am feeling right now. To be honest out of all of my relationships I have only ended one. But we were not particularly serious. I don't know what that is saying about me. And no matter how many breakups I have gone through I still have no idea how to handle it correctly. Now don't get me wrong, I don't expect every relationship to last forever; that would be highly ignorant of me. But it doesn't hurt to hope that maybe one guy will end it in a way that is not betraying, not bullshitting, and not insensitive. I am talking about the:
"let's just be friends"
"let's take a break" 
"I want to be your best friend, I'm not lying"
"it's just too hard" 
"I am doing this for you" 
"I still love you" 
"it's my fault no yours." another form of " it's not you Its me"
All of the above I am sure look familiar to anyone who has been broken up with. These messages to me are just as genuine  as the self proclaimed popular kid at school saying "call Me" and not leaving his number in your year book. I may sound bitter and right now? I am. But to be honest, it's also just realistic and logical. How many guys or girls that you have dated said these things, and actually followed through? Very few. 
So how do you handle a break up? I wish I knew the answer and could help even myself with that one. But I can't. Right now I am very alone. I talk to no one about how I feel, and yet a lot of my friends can see the pain in my face, Sense the  sadness behind my status'. But how many ask me about it? Want to talk about it? Very few. I guess I can't blame them, it's their personality. But not even my family knows or cares. Breaking down into tears "randomly", with obligation in their eyes asking "are you okay?" I say " yeah I'm fine, nothings wrong" then what come next? No coaxing, no coercing. Silence. I guess I should get used to that.