Friday, October 8, 2010

I would rather drown in deep water, than shallow water.

What is life worth if we take no risks? I look around me, and see so many people that are looking at the next "anti-aging face lotion" or the next plastic surgery, and it makes me sick. When did our world become so shallow? Where is the risk in looking like every other teeny-bopper wannabe mom? There isn't one. Where is the risk in bleaching your hair like all the cheerleaders in hope to attract the same attention? Its not there either. I have been guilty of some of these things, trying to buy clothes to fit in, listening to music that seems to be the "right" kind to everyone else, but me, loathing my body, because it wasnt like... well hers. Then I started to realize that I cant change everything about me, and why should I want to. Why not take the one thing that seperates us as humans, and make the world see how beautiful that is? The two things that make us different than everyone else, is ours physical features, and our thoughts/actions.

Why not enhance the features that we have? We all have beautiful features. You can look at any person for a moment in passing and see an ugly, undesirable human being. But if you got to look up close, maybe you would see gorgeously high cheekbones, or captivating eyes that light up when they smile, or perfect teeth. It is my theory that there is always at least ONE thing that makes each person beautiful. I may not love everything about myself but I can see my beauty through my eyes.

Now, I have been only talking about the skin deep risks, but thats only part of what I see as a problem. I have a question for you guys out there: Is it really attractive to see a girl that acts too stupid to spell her own name? And for the girls: Is it cute to see a guy that treats people like he doesn't care, because he is "too cool"? I think the answers to these questions are fairly obvious, but maybe its not since not many others seems to see it. None of us are ditz's at heart. And ALL of us care, we care a lot, almost too much for our own good. So why not take the risk of showing what you are really thinking, what you are really feeling? Why not share the amazingly complex thought that just popped into your head? I may not be the most DEEP person on the earth, but its really lonely sometimes to feel like I am the only who thinks about things, who acknowlegdes the bad in things without being too pessimistic. If we all put our thoughts out there like we felt like the world needed to hear them, maybe people would listen.

But we are afraid. It always seems to go back to that doesn't it. Well here is one thing that I will say, and its easier said than done, but I did it, so it cant be TOO difficult. If you are afraid to show the people your best friends what you are thinking, how you are truly feeling, who you REALLY are, then leave, find new friends. What is the point in being there if you really don't fit in? If you are scared of persecution from your friends, then what makes them friends? Just leave. There are always other friends to be had. And as I found, they were sitting there waiting for me, waiting for me to realize I can do better.
I used to be afraid. And then I realized how strong I was, how strong every human is. I can take anything high school passes my way. I would rather put myself out there, and be attacked and killed for my depth and personality, than slowly drown in the self-loathing in the shallow depths of a kiddie pool. Its a hard thing, to seperate yourself from what the media seems to be forcing on us, but its not impossible. Take a risk.

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