I am struggling. There I said it. Happy? I'm not. Well not really. I am not going to bash anyone, because that is not why I write, or why I have a blog. I will say that I am in pain from the things that are surrounding me. As I have written in this blog, I have talked a lot about overcoming depression and how you just have to do it. So I am going to do it. I am going to kick this, I can't let it drag me down again. It's getting there though. I have my closest friends that still care, and have my back. Chris is amazing, always there to talk, and always makes me feel so good. I try to help him and in turn it helps me too. He really doesn't understand what an amazing guy he is, and how true a friend he is. I appreciate all he does for me. Then there is Trevin, what can I say that hasn't already been said? You are so good to me, and lately I have been... I don't know, I guess a little moody, or emotional, but you don't care. You try to help me through it, and don't mind me crying, in fact you encourage it, so that I am not alone crying. I have so many other friends, that I rarely hang out with, and yet they help me so much. My newest, and yet oldest good friend is back, and it is nice, but I have had to make an exchange to get that friendship back. Currently its hurting, but it helps that he cares. I love my friends, and even though I am struggling, I will make it. I will not be a "what could have been", I will be "victorious through my trials". My family gets the brunt of me a lot of the time, and for that I am so sorry. I am trying guys.
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