Comatose (skillet)

"I hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this "
The faint sound of rain tapping on the windshield, begging me to come back to my reality, teasing me with a bit of simplicity. My mind is somewhere else.
"I'm asleep and all I dream of
Is waking to you
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing"
The tears in my eyes threatening to run down my cheeks and steal your attention. One side of the fight inside me yells and screams for you to notice so that you can wipe them away, the other prays that you will not notice my sly attempts to make render myself tearless.
"And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you
Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel"
The words to this song are killing me, making me cry harder. The thought of losing you, the thought of not being with you haunts my mind, and torments my heart. This very intimidating, yet real fact dangles over my conscience. I can feel your eyes searching the side of my face, trying to find a trace of what you secretly suspect. No tears are in view, and yet we are both sadly aware of their presence.
"Waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real"
The words in perfect sequence, and in the most precise tones to seduce the pain out of hiding. The sting of the inevitability is renewed as you pull over the car.
"I hate living without you
Dead wrong to ever doubt you
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh how I adore you
Oh how I thirst for you
Oh how I need you "
The interrogation begins with "Paige, what's wrong?" and is followed by long silence. "Nothing." You are staring me down, searching my face, trying to figure out what is troubling the mind of your love, as if it could be written on my face for only your convenience. I want to just tell you how much I love you, and it would make your night. I know that. But it would hurt me, I know that too.
"Breathing life
Waking up
My eyes
Open up
Oh how I adore you
Waking up to you never felt so real
Oh how I thirst for you
Waking up to you never felt so real
Oh how I adore you"
If you only knew. Your hands pull my face to look at you, and though I want to turn away, I don't. Because I love you. If you only knew how much I just wanted to run with you from everything, everyone. If you only knew how I love you. Staring back into your curious eyes a tear runs down my cheek. "Paige, what is wrong, please tell me." As the conversation continues it goes no where. I know you know my thoughts, you know all too well. And yet you sit there, bright-eyed, unscathed. I admire your strength, how you hold it in, keep it up, and stay alive.
"The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real"
The rain drops on the windshield keep on rapping, and I try to acknowledge the outside world. Because outside of this car, this universe, nothing matters to me. As you pull back onto the road, I watch you. I love you. I just hope that this feeling of losing you doesn't last. Or I wont.