scott

Scott, your stealing my smiles,

they are on there for you,

i keep on these smiles,

so take all that you choose.

Your doubts are my facts,

and the same goes for you,

you make up for my lacks,

give me someone to turn to.

How can i learn to keep?

what i have never been able,

lost friends and memories,

been given a broken label.

Misperception of your reflection,

I see so much more than them,

through your words  feel the tension,

so smile at me and know that when

You need me I'll be waiting,

I'll help you through the pain,

through the expectations of going,

whatever I lose I hope you gain.

The healing I'm feeling
The pain its revealing 
Brings images, memories 
And dark hidden feelings 

I'm fighting this war inside 
 I struggle to say alive 
I stab and I beat and I will defeat 
This monster commendeering my mind

To the surface it rises 
I struggle, it still rises
Release the pain and let it go
tears begin a heavy flow

Sudden lightness ensues 
It brightens and renews 
This weight is now soaring 
My mind left imploring 

Dear souls so close to me
Make anxiety and sadness leave
No longer alone in my silence 
Words spoken and woken in side us 

I'm fighting this war inside 
 I struggle to say alive 
I stab and I beat and I will defeat 
This monster commendeering my mind

I don't know how to write

I don't know how to write, My muse,
my inspiration, Said goodnight,
then he turned out the light.
I feel dark, why is it so light?

You say that you don't love me
Why don't you try to love me,
We all make mistakes please
someone to come and hug me

The one thing to inspire me was you,
And now your gone. And my desire
Is still here, a burning fire you try to douse
with my tears from when I cry

where did it go? My will to scribble,
My pen and paper, are in a dribble,
Go for that hoop To remind
me, of when I was little

I would dream of my knight in
Scrounged clothing, but still glowing
I would dream of my rescue and
Ohhhh How I would love him

Now that I'm older, I'm so much older
I realize that it's deceiving To think he is
coming, I have to chase him Track him down
and embrace him Because when I do I will wake up

From this nightmarish he'll that engulfs me
It cuts,  and threatens and  it pulls me
Apart. This hazy downward spiral that Pulls me,
my prince will teach me how to let go and be free

for one day this unrequited love will not be,
and your lack will not drive me
And I will have HIM standing by me,
And you'll happy, or just me