My dearest ex-FHTB,

Yesterday I took a detour, dang all this construction. On this detour I saw many moments in our past that evoked a very nestolgic mood for the next hour. Passing the park where we would lay next to a creek, and play in the water, laugh, and when you would kiss me gently, I couldn't help but feel emotions I cannot begin to explain. Sadness, yes, but happiness was in there somewhere too. Somewhere. I passed that church parking lot where we ran into that possy of girls on their scooters haha and I couldn't help but smile and shake my head at that embarrassing experience. So many moments that had passed and left a huge effect on my heart. I am trying so hard to push past the bitterness, I promise you I am trying. But if you remember the day you broke up with me, when we were just talking, sitting in your car, frustration illustrated on our faces. I told you, I would push you away before I could be your friend again. I told you that. Remember? The other day when the sun was out and shining I sat on my front porch like we used to do so frequently, and just talk, share things. The times that tears would flood to my eyes and you would wipe them away as they approached my cheeks. The stars oh I remember the stars more than anything, and I smile at the cliche occurrence of the evening of our first date :) I am telling myself more and more that although happy moments come to an end and regrets surface, the sadness cannot take away the significance, and the beauty of those moments. You may not love me anymore, you may not care anymore, but at least I know you did. And that you have shown me love, in the purest way you knew how, and it made me feel it, and feel beautiful, for you. I remember when you were on the phone with your boss, and I kept interrupting ha, good times. I don't know exactly why I am writing this to you. When I talk to you lately I don't get much out of you, so I guess I want you to know how I feel. I forgive you. I wish we could be friends, and I wish that you were here, or talked to me at all. I'm not begging for you to take me back, I'm just asking that you know that I still care, and I only regret ONE thing that came between us. Thank you for showing me I can be beautiful, and thank you for loving me