As I was falling asleep last night I was thinking about this christmas season. Throughout my jr. high and high school careers christmas season has just felt like another holiday, I haven't legitimately felt festive in years. Contrary to years previous, I felt oh so festive this year. I loved caroling, relished Temple Square, and enjoyed the lights. Pondering on the change of my festivity, I realized that this is my last Christmas living at home. I leave for college next fall, and I think subconsciously I decided to gather up all the memories that I could. Truly, I am going to miss my family so much, and although I can be a very dependent person, I enjoy being able to rely on people. Oh MOM, I love you so much, you and I have so many good times, and so many hard times together, and yet they are all good in the end. ADAM I really don't know what I will do without you, probably the only person I can get away with taking my anger out on, and the only person who will still love me after I do. LAUREN man, you are just a little mini-me. You try so hard all the time to impress me, and you DO! You are so cute, and really, you are going to be just as funny as I am if not funnier. DAD oh dad, really, you understand my personality and potential more than I do. SIERRA, my best friend I never had to ask for. You are always there, and whether we see the same situation two different ways, you still try, and thats all I need in a friend. You know me well enough to know what I need most.
On top of my thoughts of my family, I was thinking about the lack of festivity, or signs of it. WHERE HAVE ALL THE LIGHTS GONE? WHAT HAPPENED TO THE TRADITION OF LUMINAIRES? Less than 50% of the houses in my hometown have lights on them. It makes me sad to think that people dont think that is manditory. Its not expensive if you do it yourself! Thats my frustrations.
So I got my best friend/ boyfriend a custom sweatshirt for Christmas, I was feeling pretty amazing. Then he shows up to my house with a HUGE box, and when opened up, there are more boxes and more boxes :] He showed me up! I love him so much, and I appreciate all he does for me, mentally and emotionally, is so much more than any friend that I have. I hope that I never lose you. Christmas this year, I feel like I am not as profound as last, but I am! I swear it, I just have all my thoughts scrambled into a big pot of craziness. I think I will right a follow-up for when my thoughts are more organized.
I know that my Savior, Jesus Christ, lives. I know that he is my only way to eternal life with a future husband, I know that he is my perfect example, and my perfector. I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the only true church on the earth today, and that Joseph Smith restored it. Christmas truly is the celebration of Christs birth, and I know that I have a personal testimony of it.
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