No Longer His Crown

The ferocity of this tale intimidates most
For this demon inside I can no longer host
He's wrapped and weaved, twisted and deceived,
So long a role in this pain I attempt to relieve

A monster I've made, and a shadow I follow 
Lead to believe, that without him I am hollow
I halfheartedly fight, and he knows all too well
attempting any progress can be my demise if i fail.

This monster, this demon inside me that I keep
I try to escape him and to stab in his sleep
Too strong for my feeble attempts, he awakes
And I run, and I dodge, as he jabs at my legs. 

Aware of certain facts, he takes back control,
He monopolizes my mind, and envelops my soul
Dragging me back, thrashing and screaming,
He turns around laughing, his confidence beaming 

Fighting the length of this battle, not always unattended 
Though any seeming comradeship swiftly has ended.  
Many have vacated and left my back exposed
always trying to compensate and remain somewhat composed.

Overwhelmed by the odds, and how could I blame them
Now alone, playin swords in the dark with my demon
Raising his weapon, and striking me down
He only keeps me alive to live as his crown

I love you's and I miss you's, please stay by my side,
A gaping wound reopened with every unspoken goodbye
unavoidably i wince in silence then let go with utter malice
Slowly morphing into this human sized, and bitter calice.

Though this sad tale has yet to be concluded 
I sing you now, a medley thats somewhat deluded
I vow to overcome this demon inside of me,
and to relentlessly saw away at his flesh that 
forever Reconstructing itself to bind me.